So I sit here after my first post in about 3 months. First journal in almost 8. Waiting for the replies, hoping I'm still alive on this site. I don't even know if it matters.
Seth and I are over. Watching A Life Aquatic still makes me cry. A great love has entered my life right when I needed him and when he needed me. The smell of lavender still makes me sleepy. I dream dreams so far away. I still fall asleep to the sound of a TV humming. I light three candles. Spritz vanilla fragrance on my back to cool down during the day. I eat less than ever, but can still manage to devour a pint of cookies and cream. Duckie. Maybe everything will work out. Fate plays tricks...but can it be glorifyingly suprising.

I love the crunch of leaves. It means that I am still alive....

-A-